Saturday, 29 December 2012

2012 - Spinning And Ending

2012 was not that bad a year for me. It didn't fulfill all my silvery dreams. But it was not bad either. I have seen some rough ones so all in all I sailed along just fine in this one. It was not so for several other women out there. And what do I have to thank for that? The sheer dumb randomness of my birth and the unseeable rightness of being at the place I was at when something dark and damning happened somewhere else. Oh yes like every year I have learnt, grown, wilted, made merry and cried with hopelessness that nothing good will ever come of my existence. I have wiped those tears and gone to places I never thought I ever would. I have realised that who I was has evolved but some parts have only matured to be only more refined. I felt no nostalgia when I left behind my school and schoolmates. I felt none this past year as I left behind my graduation class. As always I am proud of my wisdom which I had even at 15-16. The ones you are friends with always keep in touch be it over days, weeks or months, over land or sea or a different locality. I don't quite comprehend my own tone in this post. Maybe it is cynicism mixed with a bit of dark humour. Well all of us are not shiny and sparkly. But hey, I make merry!
Some photographs I took recently

I have already bid farewell to 2012
I promise to remain painted this coming year. I promise to continue drinking, wearing hemlines that don't reach my knees (oh woe me!). I promise I won't let you say my right to revolt is in shambles and get away with it. I promise you our eyes are on all you sexists, misogynists, chauvinists. I promise not to be anti-men even when you are being anti-women. I promise to try to educate you. I promise to provoke you to do away with your mental myopia. I promise the cause of women is not going to be the only cause I devote my time to. I promise to try to teach you I am not a cardboard character you have "painted and dented" in your mind for ages to suit your version of who I should be so that you do not feel powerless. Some victims die, some survive, I promise I will fight for and alongside them all. I promise I will fight for a better society till the day all my bones turn to ashes.


  1. so inspirational! thank you for your words!

  2. It's a shameful end to the year.......but it should make us sit up & take that we make the years to come more secure & the world a better place to live in...

  3. This your best post ever Debi, I loved your words and the intesity of it!
    I wish you all the best!
    Don't Call Me Fashion Blogger

  4. The last bit Debi! So beautifully put into words..I feel so helpless with all this around. But we can always hope for change.
    And the pictures beautiful as always!

  5. This brought tears to my eyes. I can't help but to click on the links you post on twitter and it looks like there is so much flawed with the world. You're a brave, passionate soul.

  6. Debi, I can't complain about 2012 either. I've had worse one's too. There's so much to be done in this world. So many of the people are messed up. It saddens me. I just try to help whomever reaches out and wants help. I like that you're bringing awareness to the problems at hand. I like that you're doing something about it. Do what you can without losing yourself. Sometimes we're so trying to help others that we go down. Stay focused. ((hug))

  7. First of all, I am beyond words regarding what happened on that bus in India. ... (silence) ....

    I hope this new year is a good one for you. And I don't mean for it to just be sparkly and happy - that's just like watching a Hollywood film, utterly meaningless. But rather to be full and rich in experience.

    Terrific photos, by the way! Are they all from your new camera? -- J xxx

    1. yes they are all from the nikon d5100..and edited on ps5.